Bridge Over Troubled Water

Oh Mary Don’t You Weep.

When I hear the song again, I put my story into their song. Knowing what they have said about this song, it is more familiar with their story—a love song. As I provided information as to its attachment to the Gospels, that is interesting, and it has another backstory for me as well. But this is the kind of story God has told for everyone—eyes to see, ears to hear. When you look, you too shall find. The God story is to God’s glory, and it is in every song and every story. It is, in ways, attached to your story, because God is very creative, and everything is a creation of God.

When you were weary and feeling small—I was attacked by many in ways far surpassing just violence, and I was tired. As a matter of fact, one of my most common statements in prayer is, “I am tired.” When the world is against you, it feels like you’re small. But in the strength, I remind myself of how large I am in God, and there is no plan of God to be overlooked or fail. He is true to His word, and His faith is always good and strong, and you cannot be bigger than God Almighty.

And with tears in my eyes, there has also been joy. I have survived attempts on my life, and all the pains are turned to gains with God. When the times get rough, interestingly—as I’ve said many times—it’s usually the attacks that are the heaviest right before the most amazing and good blessings from God. I quickly return from tears to joy.

I recently unfriended everyone on social media because I thought to myself that I wanted to start from zero—to better represent the state in which I was hurt and harmed the most. That was also when I had the least: the least in family, the least in friends. I was essentially alone with God, and no one else could be found. But what I know now is that God wanted me isolated. He wanted me to dive further into the depths of His love. He wanted me to read more of the Bible—and I did. I fell in love with Jesus. I began to understand more every day. Each day I read more, I became more. Then I was reborn into Jesus, and the Holy Spirit removed my old, sinful heart and replaced it with one of righteousness and kindness. And this is the bridge—this is my bridge from Jesus over troubled waters. This is the break I want others to see, as it is what saved me.

There are attacks that remain. I am a talented artist with skills beyond most, yet I work almost entirely toward the goals of God. I have no jobs. They burn homes down. They have killed people. They have done criminal things far surpassing what would be considered ignored by police. And I have these calls also to the FBI and RCMP and many levels of government, with over 270,000 emails and many, many public statements of clarity. There is nothing that I could not prove and cannot prove—it’s all on video. So in these troubled waters, when I was down and out, when I had lost my home and everything I had, when everything fell on me and fell so hard, my God comforted me through the storm. I could always see the light.

God reminds me to keep sailing—that all storms shall pass to the glory of God. There is a story in me of God—a story of many pains to many gains. And I am still sailing out of a storm, but I have been shown the prize ahead. I have seen the bright, clear skies. I know I am to be loved again. I know that I have always been loved by God. I have always loved the enemy and the friends and the family that abandoned me. I will never abandon anyone, because my love is true. It is unconditional, and it remains forever.

Yes, I too will shine. I shine right now. I shine in the light of God and the light to come in eternal life with my rebirth into Spirit. With the light of love for God, with God, for all—from my heart, my mind, and soul—I shine much light forever.

More Depth with God and insights I also have from God.

When I looked into the background of the song Bridge Over Troubled Water, I saw the influence behind it. Paul Simon was inspired after hearing the gospel group The Swan Silvertonesn and the song Oh Mary Don’t you Weep. He described how the sound and message stayed in his head—and to me, that points to something deeper. That’s God that was in his head, Holy Spirit.

What stands out to me is not just the history of the song, but what I often find within these histories—a kind of quiet confirmation, almost like a wink from God.

I am writing about the grace of God, and when I looked at the roots of “Oh Mary, Don’t You Weep,” it is clearly biblical. These words echo truth that comes from God. And then something even more personal stood out to me:

“My one Grand Mother was Grace Mary MacLean, and my other Grand Mother was Martha Wettstein.”

I know the Scripture. I know who Mary and Martha are in the Word of God—and I also know who they were in my life. I also know that God is creative in his love and knows I will find this as I am always looking.

Mary and Martha, as written in John and Luke, were sisters from Bethany and among Jesus’ closest friends outside of the twelve disciples. They lived with their brother Lazarus, whom Jesus raised from the dead. I also know Jesus raised me from the dead.

These are not just stories to me—they are living truths. And in my own way, I understand what it means to be brought back to life. I have been freed indeed.

AGAIN, God knows I am always look for the love story—and here there are many, all intertwined: the love in Scripture, the love in these songs, the love in my life, and above all, the grace of God that ties it all together, I find stories in stories in stories and all of it is of God.

In one moment, Martha is described as “distracted by much serving,” and she asks Jesus to tell Mary to help her. But Jesus gently corrects her, saying that Mary has chosen the better part—simply being with Him and listening.

This is something I saw portrayed powerfully in The Chosen. It helped make clear a deeper truth: to love Jesus first is not to neglect others—it is to love them rightly. There is nothing more loving, nothing more full of grace, than God. Love God with all your heart, mind and soul and all others after.

In another moment, during a dinner in Bethany John 12:1–8, Martha serves while Mary anoints Jesus’ feet with expensive perfume and wipes them with her hair. This act prepares Him for His burial. It is a deeply powerful expression of love and understanding—again portrayed meaningfully in The Chosen—where it becomes one of the first clear moments that His death is openly acknowledged.

And then there is the death of Lazarus John 11:1–44. Both sisters show their faith, saying that if Jesus had been there, their brother would not have died. Martha makes a powerful confession, declaring that Jesus is the Son of God.

I am here to save lives and in guidance to life it is in belief of Jesus and The Covenant of Grace in Jesus. Christ Jesus the Son of God is there to save everyone, salvation is impossible without belief; one cannot be saved by someone they do not believe exists. To be saved, you must believe he is the Son of God, which serves as a confirmation of your faith in God Himself. You cannot have one without the other because of the Trinity: the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. It is the Spirit that gives you spiritual birth, connecting you to Jesus, who was the Word before creation. He existed with God from the very beginning, dwelling in eternity beyond the reach of time.

I know that all is God’s plan, and this too involves the enemy, as God knows their plans and turns them into His purposes. Just as God did with Jesus—the blood of the Lamb became a victory for all.

I have thought many times about thanking the enemy, because it was their attacks that forced me into isolation—where I found my true self. I have not had a drink in years. I am sober, drug-free, and I do not smoke. I have even quit drinking coffee. I abstain from sex of any kind—not even masturbation. I am free indeed. The sinful heart is dead; the one I live with now is righteous.

I can thank the enemy, and I can truly say that I love them.

What’s interesting is that to hate the life in this world is also a blessing—that they would try to take my life in this world, while I am willing to give it. And further than that, I seek to save them and save their lives—to help them heal, to feel, and to see things as they truly are.

John 12:25
Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.

Matthew 10:39
Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.

Matthew 16:25
Jesus said, “For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.”

Bridge Over Troubled Water Lyrics

When you’re weary
Feeling small
When tears are in your eyes
I will dry them all
I’m on your side
Oh, when times get rough
And friends just can’t be found

Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

When you’re down and out
When you’re on the street
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you
I’ll take your part
Oh, when darkness comes
And pain is all around

Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

Sail on, silver girl
Sail on by
Your time has come to shine
All your dreams are on their way
See how they shine
Oh, if you need a friend
I’m sailing right behind

Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind